Today it’s been a day of reflection…
After an amazing week back home and an awesome evening last night, ‘holiday’ blues got me.
But it’s been an amazing day chatting with friends reflecting on life. And the sunshine made everything better.
It’s not I don’t feel happy. I do. But I feel unsettled… And I can’t figure out why. I am getting over a lot of things, so I can’t put my finger on what it is. I am not sure what I really want in life. Move to Australia for a year? Save money and change careers?Volunteer in Africa? Settle down and have a child? The options are endless…
I might need to change myself, or I might need a major change in my life, move away for a while, reset and come back.
Ask yourself, what it is that makes you feel unsettled/unhappy/bored? When you figure it out, you are halfway there. Then you’ll know what to do and do whatever it takes…take your chances, what’s the worst it can happen?
What it really matters though is to be happy right now. I wouldn’t like to wait a year or two saving money but not enjoying the present, just to do something else later on. I’ve made that mistake before. Living in the moment is the way forward!
But then again, I wouldn’t like to rush into things. I’ve made that mistake too and it didn’t end well.
It’s difficult to find a balance. But I will get there. Having options in life and not knowing what might come up next is very exciting!
Being scared of getting hurt again or being too cautious carries the danger of missing out amazing opportunities and pushing away lovely human beings who want to be in your life (special thanks to my professor for his amazing advice, he is absolutely right) and I wouldn’t like to miss out because life is too short.
In the last couple of months I became friends with people I’d never thought I would and created special bonds with friends I’d never thought I would. I learned over and over ‘never say never’ so I am open to whatever life brings.
I feel lucky I have amazing friends home and away (and pretty cool colleagues too!) who made today a special day.
Thank you everyone 🙂
It is scary to think about it, but we can die at any time. And if I die tomorrow I’d die happy because I had a nice lunch with Shebz, tasted the most amazing chocolate from NZ and had amazing chats about life with awesome friends.
I’ll leave you with a quote (I do love a good quote):
Life goes on… whether you choose to move on and take a chance in the unknown. Or stay behind locked in the past, thinking of what it could’ve been…
Love you all! x